A LIL' NOTE

visualDNA

2007-05-19T00:40:00.000+08:00

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splashing love all over

2007-04-23T16:56:00.000+08:00

i can't help but confess who rocks my world. not even iron maiden is an inch near.

when you grow old with your partner you tend to love the quirky nonsense he posses. having peanut butter & jelly with cheese for breakfast. getting your neurons giggled up every time he leaves the water bottle empty. forever loosing the fire wire cable.

relationship, friendship and partnership it can be heavy duty, but it's worth every single white hair.

past and present

2007-01-03T13:03:00.000+08:00

you have touched so many lives even before you were born

and i say this to you...
you have given me an understanding of love like no other
something i have never experienced
a sense of peace and harmony at it's highest level
you have shown me the joy of sharing
you have given me a beautiful journey filled with many treasures

you have taught me love is undivided
your love and life is eternal
you are an eternal being
and forever our angel

the immense amount of love you have received from people who came to send you on your new journey, to me is very profound

life is not something to be taken for granted

in my journey with you
i have travelled to the furtherest corner of love
i took part in sharing my proudest moments in life
i grew a step in conquering my fears

to my dearest Alex Xara.....

keluarga saya

2006-09-27T16:41:00.000+08:00

the angel

2006-09-04T19:14:00.000+08:00

... A baby’s mind and heart are innocent and pure. A baby’s love is freely given. A baby represents the freedom of hope, love and joy ...

me and my belly

2006-08-12T16:31:00.000+08:00

week26
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

...had a henna tattoo artist at Demi's birthday party. everybody had some kind of funky patterns drawn on their hand, arm and shoulder. and since i have a lil' angel in my stomach, I thought that it's be supa-dupa to have it on my ever growing belly....

-this is for you angel-

week18 - week24

2006-08-12T16:21:00.000+08:00

f l i c k r t a r i a n

2006-07-22T00:10:00.000+08:00

we're P R E G N A N T!!

2006-05-22T09:25:00.000+08:00

on the 3rd March friday as we were about to go to sleep, i turned to Josh and told him... "I think we're pregnant". and his face litted up and broke into a wide smile and he said... "really? are you sure?"

the next day I did the home pregnancy test and sure enough the two pink lines appeared before my very eyes. came out of the toilet and passed Josh the test kid with the instruction paper and walked off. thought that it'd be fun to let him figure out for himself... hee hee.

and so we broke the news to our closest friends the next day. and boy were they excited.

saved the news for both our parents the week after. thought that since my mom's birthday was on the 11th what better birthday present it would be for her. we both had a deal where I'd tell his parents and as he would mine. so over the birthday dinner, Josh spilled the beans to them. they were obviously excited to have their 4th grandchild on the way.

the very next day, we both broke the news to my siblings in laws over at Pantai Hill. they were all happy for the both of us and terribly excited to see the faces of my parents in law when we tell them the news of the new arrival to the family.
here's a shot of them after receiving the NEWs.

our friends just had their first angel recently and the wife recommended us to go to Global Doctors at Mont Kiara. our doctor is Doctor Yoga. a very nice fella i must say and has a great sense of humor. that's a plus point in my books.

our 1st check up was 15th March, the baby is 0.71cm @ 6 and a half weeks. i'm weighing in at 51kgs.

our angel grew so much within a month, on the 15th April, Saturday we had our 2nd check up. the doctor did the usual plus he also checked if the baby is prone to have down syndrome by measuring just at the bottom tip of the head to check for signs of it. bless our angel, the baby looks good. this time the baby is just under 3 months old measuring 3.8cm. i somehow managed to gain a termendous amount of weight which the doctor was not too happy with. it's now 54.5kgs!! that's 3.5kgs in a month! so i got my fair share of "You've got to start goin' to the gym now". oopsss!!
had my best friend with us on this particular visit. she was ecstatic to see the baby's heart beat! the doctor had a ball trying to measure our lil' angel cause our angel as practically doin' the mexican wave, with hands flying here and there. as if waving to say "Hi!" to us.

had our 3rd check up on Monday, 15th May at our usual time 11am. this time Doctor Yoga took some blood sample from me. i'm doin' not too bad on the weighing scale this time round, added myself 1kg making it 55.5kgs. the baby is now 8.7cm and healthy at 15 and a half weeks.

the one thing that i'm really enjoying out of this pregnancy is flonting my ever growing boobies!! yee haa!!

- there's nothing like having a human being growing in your belly and being able to share each and every moment & experience with the people you love and loves you. -

waiting in vain....

2006-04-03T13:07:00.000+08:00

waiting in vain....
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

most probably early to mid next year by the looks of it. they said from the time the project resumes again, it'll take another 8 months to complete.

my 1st TV commercial...

2006-03-29T10:39:00.000+08:00

Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

recently... i was offered to direct my 1st TV commercial. something that never crossed my mind. ever!!
of course i was honored and shocked at the same time.
me? directing..?! whoa!!
well... how can i pass an opportunity of a life time!
a memorable year for certain...

a lollipop twist

2006-03-25T12:29:00.000+08:00

a lillipop twist
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

sometimes life can be quite twisted.... but that is what makes it colorful

20D

2006-03-23T10:05:00.000+08:00

I bought myself the Canon EOS 20D!!!
I was absolutely ecstatic!! Tested & studied the camera.
Took some shots obviously.... until i heard my name being called.

It was Josh calling to say he's off for his shoot.
and I thought "oh, i could follow and take some shots on his shoot!!".
That was until i woke up and realized that Josh was already ready to go for his shoot and I was lying in bed in my pjs.

...sigh...

It was one of the best dream I've had, I'm sure of it.

Flickrism...

2006-03-21T01:34:00.000+08:00

Flickrism...
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

it's what some might call a 21st century religion. you eat Flickr... you bath Flickr... you sleep Flickr

M a n i Q

2006-03-11T12:30:00.000+08:00

FLICKr February 2006

2006-02-28T12:36:00.000+08:00

Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

... a month in the life of a Flickr addict ...

my CRAZEE family

2006-02-27T23:06:00.000+08:00

LET'S MOVE AROUND NOW...
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

photographed by my mistaMan, JOSHua Fernandez

FLICKr January 2006

2006-02-19T02:50:00.000+08:00

Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

my number one pick for "Must Have" food in Kuala Lumpur

2006-02-15T13:36:00.000+08:00

addictive
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

this is my favourite nasi lemak place in the whole wide world. it has to be NASI LEMAK ANTARABANGSA in Kampung Bharu, KUALA LUMPUR.

so if ever you come to Kuala Lumpur, I'd suggest that once you're done gwaking at the Petronas Towers... you must have a taste of the "Coconut Milk Rice". You won't be disappointed with the variety of dishes served.

interestingEXPLORE

2006-01-15T16:18:00.000+08:00

interestingEXPLORE • one
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

yee haa...!! quite proud to be in FLICKr most interesting EXPLORE page

2006-01-14T12:46:00.000+08:00

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here's to 2006

2005-12-31T22:22:00.000+08:00

Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

if i had to

2005-12-28T22:35:00.000+08:00

if i had to paint paradise
i'd see you in the sun

if i had to paint paradise
i'd have you in my arms

earn Xtra money...

2005-12-27T22:46:00.000+08:00

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always friends & forever lovers..

2005-12-21T14:18:00.000+08:00

to... jason&zabrina
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

..love makes us break all rules..

endlessLOVE

2005-12-18T13:39:00.000+08:00

johan&corey
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

..to share love with another is a priceless gift..

We Wish You A Merry Christmas..

2005-12-11T03:29:00.000+08:00

here.. fishy fishy fishy
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

theWATERMELON

2005-11-08T14:21:00.000+08:00

one of my latest ARTwork. started off not knowing what this piece will turn out to be, but once I started coloring and placing in the lines it looked like an abstract WATERMELON. and some said it looked like a Kiwi fruit too. very subjective I suppose.

currently I'm working on 3 other paintings which has the same kind of motifs but at the same time different in every way. it's a bummer though that I can't do figures for shit, but who knows maybe I'll develop my own new technique of figure drawing.

coverDesign

2005-11-06T12:49:00.000+08:00

e x t r a o r d i n a r y

2005-10-29T20:47:00.000+08:00

be extraordinary...
you'll see that you might even surprise yourself

own your dreams...
because it belongs to you

all of us

2005-10-22T22:00:00.000+08:00

NEW names

2005-10-21T17:11:00.000+08:00

My J A P A N E S E name is 中島 NAKASHIMA (center of the island) 歩 AYUMI (walk, deeper meaning: walk your own way).
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My D R A G O N name is HRAGON the ASH MAKER (Black Dragon).
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My B R I L L I A N T is Palastra The Radiant.
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the website address was given by my sista-in-law, Corey.
it's fun, so try it yourself...

tick tock... tick tock...

2005-10-20T00:23:00.000+08:00

boy... am i going through bad times now. end of the month is coming and i wish i could just runaway. runaway from being an adult. oh god.... is this what they call mid-life crisis? it can't be, it just can't be like this. this is the saddest mid-life welcoming anybody could ever have.

i get entertained watching my husband squeezing and talking to the cats while he laughs like a monkey cause i am giggling and snorting like a pig and. i tend to make it a point to remember the schedule for all my favorite shows on tv. i smoke less now though... so one brownie point for me, yee haa. i worry less about tomorrow and just enjoy today. my eyesight is not getting any better... worst that i can't for the life of me remember where i last placed my glasses. and so it shows that my memory span may match up to a gold fish... sooner than i thought.

the kids are growing up so fast that it throws me off balance. my patience level is going record low.

oh... this is just the beginning isn't.

why am i writing this again....

sigh

SELAMAT BERPUASA & HARI RAYA

2005-10-16T17:21:00.000+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

p h o t o g r a p h y

2005-10-10T12:12:00.000+08:00

1st day of P U A S A!!!

2005-10-05T10:00:00.000+08:00

the world i take for granted

2005-09-20T05:55:00.000+08:00

i use to think that nothing is perfect.

thirty years I have been taught by all that surrounds me.

the air i breathe, the sun i soak, the ground i walk upon, the water i feel, the words i hear, the drama i see, the anger i taste, the courage i seek, the confessions i speak, the truth i bleed, the disappointment i meet, the guilt i avoid, the love i speak, the life i lead.

I used to preach that there is no picture perfect in a painting.
There is not a single day that I try to prove to myself.
There is not a single day that I try to prove someone else wrong.

and every single day the world teaches me.

of lessons of love, of lessons of giving, of lessons of feeling, of lessons of seeing, of lessons of listening, of lessons of being, of lessons of asking.

but only a day in a year do i allow myself to learn.

learn that life itself is perfect.
perfect as the day i was born.

H E A V E N on E A R T H

2005-09-16T01:10:00.000+08:00

stonehenge
Originally uploaded by Hadjek.

my LIFE in COLOURS

2005-09-11T05:09:00.000+08:00

stepBYstep

2005-09-02T02:31:00.000+08:00

stepBYstep
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

... in life we pass through many doorways. one after another. in each passage and journey we learn a lil' bit more about ourselves. whether it's the right turn or the wrong turn we've made, whether it's the right decision or the wrong choice we've made. with every doorway passed, we take along with us bits of experience we've travelled ...

my P O S I T I V E • I N K

2005-08-25T15:42:00.000+08:00

my P O S I T I V E • I N K
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

... as I venture into the world of illustration & design ...

c r e a t i v i t y

2005-08-22T18:35:00.000+08:00

cre8
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

... human beings are creative animals ...

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by my side

2005-08-06T00:12:00.000+08:00

Unearthly
Originally uploaded by txkimmers.

... just remember, there's always an A N G E L beside you ...

What do you want to be when you grow up?

2005-08-02T22:36:00.000+08:00

“Fill up the form and return it tomorrow” those were the words my class teacher uttered in primary school. It’s one of those forms which you fill out stating what you want to be when you’re older. And if I remember correctly my choices were
1. doctor
2. teacher
3. lawyer
go ahead… laugh, cause I am.

I wanted to be a doctor only because there was this documentary show on our local tv station that featured a medical segment which would have a patient in the OR. They’d cut open the unfortunate patient and poke a lil’, cut a lil, draw some of the blood that was oozing out and stitch them back up. And wa-lah…. The patient would be cured. So I thought that looked easy to do. Little did I know that it’d take 6 to 7 years of your life just to be able to slice someone up. So that dream when out the drain accompanied by the fact that I didn’t actually enjoyed science or physics that much.

While waiting for 3 months to go by for the Business Admin course results which I took in college, my sister suggested that I work just to keep myself busy plus I could earn my own pocket money to buy all the clothing that I liked. And so I agreed. She came across a job opening in the newspaper looking for a “Casting Assistant” at a production house.

Got dressed in my favorite blue dress…… got into a taxi and off I went for the interview. It turned out that the guy who came before me got the job but they’d still like for me to work with them as their receptionist. Hey…. I saw it as still money coming in regardless and my results wasn’t going to be out in a couple of months time anyways. The pay wasn’t that much, but to start earning your own cash was already a BIG thing for me.

After 2 months working… it was clear to me as to what I wanna do in my life to come. So, I build up my guts to face my father telling him that I don’t wanna continue studying the course I was taking and that I think I’ve found what I’m interested in doing as a career. To my surprise he was okay & supportive with my decision.

My journey working started from a receptionist to a casting assistant to a casting master. Soon after I decided to go freelance. Told myself that it would be good to experience working with other film directors and experience different working environments.
And so my life as a “Freelancer” started. Continued being in charged of the casting department, worked in the wardrobe department and was used as a talent a few times.
I managed to gain the confidence of one of the producers I was working with to hire me as a Production Assistant. It was a bigger scope of job that I truly enjoyed. But soon after I got bored with the routine of the job and made sure that everybody knew that I was ready to climb up the Production ladder to become a Line Producer. As a Line Producer you’d deal with negotiating with suppliers and making sure that you don’t blow your Producer’s budget. Now we’re talking…. That’s a challenge.

Worked with several production houses as a Line Producer till I was asked to produce a RM1.3 million tv commercial, which freaked me out!!! I was not prepared to handle my first producing job that had a budget enough to buy your own house. But seeing that the production house and the director had faith & believed in me… I could not disappoint them even though I was shit scared.

Since then I’ve produced a number of tv commercials and had several job offers to work in-house, to work solely with one of the recognized film directors in KL. But my heart didn’t wanna let go of the idea of being a freelancer. But after much persistence I joined a production house, which didn’t last very long. Soon after I was back being a freelancer.

Opportunity shows up in strange places. One day while filling up petrol, I was offered a job as a Producer in a post production house. My time studying in college didn’t go to waste as I had to handle running the office too. This was somewhat new to me in making sure the office is running smoothly, staffs are happy working, purchase orders are received, payments are made by clients, on going jobs are in order. Boy, did I learn a whole lot here for sure but I wasn’t happy working there. So, I decided to leave the company.

After a short while I landed myself handling the post production & music for a local movie. This was one of those jobs which you'd be in for the next couple of months straight. A wonderful experience once again but I could feel that something was missing in my life. Once my contract working on the movie was done, I made a promise to myself that I’d take this time to explore the areas that I’ve only spoken about but never really got my hands on it. I started writing again….. started painting and my love for photography blossomed.

Here’s to a beginning of a new path in which I would soon have to make a turn again….

Zab & Demi

2005-07-30T04:21:00.000+08:00

Zab & Demi (lca)
Originally uploaded by shutupyourface.

my rockStar husbandMan....

2005-06-14T22:29:00.000+08:00

my rockStar husbandMan....
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

... I dare say that I'm truly blessed with a wonderful Friend as my Husband ...

n o t e s

2005-05-08T13:31:00.000+08:00

music plays a huge role in my life. ever since i can remember it has been a big part of growing up.

music is the one thing that we all share in command. may it come from different cultures, continents or species. we may claim to be the INVENTORs, but I'm pretty sure that the animals would actually be the rightful owners to the title.

music is a way of C O M M U N I C A T I N G with or without words, music is language itself, an instruments. the artistry of sounds.

music L I F Ts me. music C A L Ms me. music I N S P I R Es me. music B A L A N C Es me.

m y
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a treat for lil' old me...

2005-05-03T01:05:00.000+08:00

I've been dying to get a nice hat for the weekend reception @ Lone Pine, Penang Island. And now I have one!!!!
Lurve it !!!

:o)

myMistaMan

2005-04-06T21:30:00.000+08:00

My Lil' Boy Not Too Long Ago

2005-03-25T17:22:00.000+08:00

As Iwan would say it "Too Fast Too Furious".... That's how I feel about him. He has grown up so much that sometimes I'm amazed. Just by comparing the "last year Iwan" and the "this year Iwan" it's spectacularly different. He has grown so much in his way of thinking, in his way of expressing love and affection, in his way of communicating and his new liking for girls...... tee hee hee ....

He is going through the "Suara Pecah" process now. It's quite hilarious to hear him talk with a slight deep husky tone and you can surely hear the difference every week. Soon he will be making his first Identity Card this year. Yes, he's just turned 12. Celebrated his birthday @ BSC with Auntie Ira, myself, my brother in law, Imran and Omar [Imran's bestfriend]. Not quite a normal 12 year old birthday party you could say, but we all sure enjoyed the company we had.

Iwan entered a race car competition at Bangsar Shopping Centre with his friends. And I can see what all the excitement was all about, because Ira and I were caught up in the race as well. The first round he was up against two other chinese ladies. Yup, no typo error on that. Two chinese ladies who were much older than myself and Ira. The thrill of people cheering your name, the amount of people watching, chasing your competitor, hearing and seeing the number of rounds that you've made... that got Ira & I truly excited and told Iwan that he better let us know when is his next race. Now I can cleary understand why he has so much passion with cars and PS2 besides being a boy that is.

While waiting for Iwan's next round, we were dying for food and so we decided that DOME would be the place where we would stuffed our faces and smoked our lungs out. It was just the five of us this time, minus Iwan who was chilling with his friends at the race track up stairs on the third floor.

Have you had a conversation with 7 and 8 year olds? WoW, their vocabulary is just amazing!! Ira and I had our mouth open while watching them talk.

-It goes to show how much man kind have progressed and to see what our future will be-

theGlass

2005-03-22T01:23:00.000+08:00

2005-03-17T16:54:00.000+08:00

TriLy Tuesday

2005-03-16T22:57:00.000+08:00

Had the girlfriends over the other night and it was a BLAST!!! They brought baguettes, tomatoes, rocket salad, tuna and we made yummy finger food dinner, lemons for the Vodka, Pringles and POPcorns!!. It was the first time I actually witness popcorn made in a microwave, call me “Jakun” if you want, but hey when is it ever a norm within our circle of friends that we POP popcorns in the house.

We ate in front of the TV with loud music from the iTunes while bitching about the VJs on TV.

After stuffing our face with the delicious tuna sandwiches, we toast to ourselves with Lemon Drops. Nothing like a Vanilla lemon drops in those lil’ Japanese tea cups. Plus we had it like an official “Tea Ceremony”, where the person that does the preparation sat with legs folded, in the most Geisha manner. LOL, it was hilarious.

I guess what I really enjoyed was after the numerous shots of Vodka and you can’t really pronounce your words properly. There was a statement or rather a question that came out from one of the girls which cracked us up like mad. She said "trily?" This normally happens when you have two words in mind and your mouth works doubly fast. What she had in mind was “truly?” and “really?” We all just burst out laughing like monkeys.....

And we all agreed that every now and again we ought to have our “TriLy Tuesday With The Gerls” party.

I really truly lurrve you all my TriLy Tuesday GerlFriends !!!!

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Pretty!!

2005-03-15T05:56:00.000+08:00

Lia's wondrous paper lamp I
Originally uploaded by hurleygurley.

... TOO BEAUTIFUL TO GO UNNOTICED ...

Lessons of Love and Lust…

2005-03-11T17:46:00.000+08:00

Has the thought of cheating on your partner or your partner cheating on you ever crossed your mind? Well I won’t lie….. I’ve had that thought before subconsciously and consciously it did happen. Am not taking any credit for it that’s for sure, but sometimes shit happens and you learn from it.

I would say that my past relationships were formed more from the idea of lust rather than love. You know, sometimes it’s peer pressure, sometimes it’s “why not la…. he seems like a nice fella”, or even from a message that a lil’ cupid [your friends without the wings, bows & arrows] passed on or even because of him being very persistent. Well at least this kind of things only happens when you are in your teens or at least early twenties.

One of the many things that I’ve learned is that it ain’t a nice feeling when you find out that your other half is cheating on you or vice versa. Goodness…. When that happened to me, I stopped breathing. Felt like there was a brick stuck in my air hole. And the nights of endless crying and wondering WHY? Why? Why? will begin. Questions of “what does she have that I don’t?”, “why now?”, “what did I do”, “what was it I didn’t do?”….. and the list goes on, trust me on this. And I got to a stage where I went mental…. Like a real Looney walking and pacing around the house. Damn… don’t want to be in that situation again.

After a few weeks of recovering from the trauma, I began to realize that maybe subconsciously it was what I wanted but could never admit it in my conscious mind. Well like what they say “30% of the time our mind operates consciously and 70% of the time our mind operates subconsciously”. Whatever it was I thank god for it for many reasons.

If not for it, I would not be with the person I am with now.
If not for that, I would never have learned that “In order to love another you have got to love yourself first”.
If not for it, I would have never realized that “Always place yourself as first priority”
If not for that, I would have never believed in love itself.

……………………………………………………………………………………………………………

I’ve been through enough relationships to know that you can’t find love but love will find you.

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Live In Full Enrichment

2005-02-16T09:49:00.000+08:00

Life and what it means to you.....

"I've Got No Life"
I've heard that so many times and said it a couple of times I'm sure. And now I wonder what exactly was it that I meant? That I was just occupied with work and nothing else was going on.

And I forward the question to myself as to what LIFE is to me now.

Life blooms at thirty with all it's glory.
Beautiful is what it can be.

Life to me is like an umbrella in all it's honesty.
You weather the RAIN and you weather the SUNSHINE.

One item which is used for two different beauty of nature.

So when is it that you use YOUR umbrella of life.

Wishing You Lurrve

2005-02-14T00:45:00.000+08:00

HappyValentine'sDay
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

... In the memory of all the Tsunami victims & their families ...

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Thought Of The Day

2005-02-10T18:12:00.000+08:00

theSwirlySpiral ofMine
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

... Knowing the Possibilities in life is the Beginning of Happiness ...

Episode BERTUNANG

2005-02-06T16:28:00.000+08:00

SarongCincin Ceremony
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

The day we got engaged.... 6th February 2005, Sunday.

It was a ceremony that I didn't actually wanted to have but thank God we DID!! It's nothing like an akhad nikah ceremony... that's for sure. It surely is different because the feeling is just A W E S O M E. To have half a battalion of my fiancee's family come over to my parent's house to ask "Hand In Marriage" is indescribable.

If anyone is thinking of getting married in the near future.... I'm telling you, do not miss the episode of "Bertunang" because the feeling clearly defines Family L O V E....

Grow Old With Me

2005-02-05T16:17:00.000+08:00

FunnyFaces
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

... my heart is beating triple fast today. for tomorrow will be the day my new family comes to share their love with me ...

A new pool of love to share and care.

I'm Xtremely Excited !!!!!

Yee Haa

2005-01-25T16:08:00.000+08:00

.... Finally, last day of shoot for the month ...

A Bunch Of Looneys

2005-01-12T09:30:00.000+08:00

... Just a few days before the new year rolled in, my bestfriend came by the house for her weekly visit. Minutes after she arrived and settled down... she asked me to join her team on 2 on going projects. To her delight..I actually said "Okay, why not??". Made it clear to her that I only want to do booklets, NO going to meetings... NO making phone calls for bookings.... No checking on follow ups..... NO nonsense. She said "Okay, set". Yeah, right!!!! Like I didn't really see it coming that it would be an adventure of many meetings...many booklets...and long long hours. And in the middle of it all, another job came by and the Film Director said "We'll do it". HolyCow.... 3 freakin' jobs to shoot in a month, that's Madness!!! I don't know how my bestfriend does it for the past 2 years...but I really give her a standing "tabit spring".

To make matters worst.... my bestfriend didn't actually tell me that she plans to take a 2 week holiday break soon after I hopped on board. I swear she owns me BIG time for this.

I must say that with all my complaints.... it's actually really FUN when you work with a BUNCH of LOONEYs. Seriously... it makes your work a pleasure in an odd mysterious way. Go figure??!!

A Film Director who is a crazy workaholic and you hardly see him eat..... An Executive Producer who is at times in her own world and forever on the phone checking on things .... An Assistant Director who has the same "wave lenght" that no one else will understand when we both crack a joke.... A Line Producer who is just as mental as I am, if not crazier.... A Production Designer who speaks just about 5 sentences in a day but churns out amazing work of art..... A Location Manager who thinks that long hair is still in for men..... A Production Assistant who holds a title of an A.O.C.D "all oso can do".... and last but not least my 2 assistants who are my Angels in shinning amour that pulled thru preparing 40 sets of booklets which went out for 2 separate meetings on the same freakin' day.

.... Saluté to the TEAM ....

Thought Of The Day

2005-01-02T22:46:00.000+08:00

LOOKING ABOVE
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

... always TRUST your Hopes, NOT your Fears ...

Window To The World

2004-12-26T02:31:00.000+08:00

sumOfMy FavoritePhotos
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

to see what's on the other side of the globe

theEnergySpace

2004-12-23T17:37:00.000+08:00

FlickrCentral KualaLumpur
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

this is where I spend most of my time. in this tiny room filled with photos of people, to keep them in mind and remember the memories. and looking out the window while the wind blowing to my face, enjoying the sun and soaking up my dream.

a momEnt plEasE

2004-12-20T08:17:00.000+08:00

Select Kodak
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

catch attention
but not before sunrise
delete yesterday
and begin today

Life Is Precious

2004-12-16T13:43:00.000+08:00

Money makes the world go round. Yea, so does everything else. So what is it about having more money that makes the world go round? We are ruled by “paper”. A piece of printed colored paper with significant monuments, animals and dead presidents.

Luxury I suppose is what it brings. A luxury which has become a necessity these days. The luxury of education, medicine, research and development, war, technology, fame….. and the list goes on.

Status is ruled by the thickness of the wallet or for some the amount of zeros in the bank account. As P. Diddy once said “The more money you come across, the more problems you see”.

There are many equations that can be derived from it…
$ = Fame / Popularity
$ = Status
$ = Problems
$ = Happiness
… and so on so forth …

We wake up in the morning “just to make money” in order to survive. And we can’t even recycle money. Want more money? Chop more trees. However we are looking into printing money in a more ecological friendly way, for some countries that is.

I do wonder if ever there will be a time in the distant future that we don’t even use “paper money” as means of transaction. But just by the “points” you have in the bank. Transactions are made with metal plates or plastic cards or even seashells. Hahahahaaa…. The reason to wake up in the morning is just to score more “brownie points”. Now, wouldn’t that be a blast.

22nd August 2004
Sunday

::from my lil' handwritten note book::

My Inspiration

2004-12-16T13:33:00.000+08:00

A Traveler,
An Explorer,
An amazing person assembled in one body,
New things never cease to fascinate him,
Exploring is his number one hobby,
Ever Giving,
Ever Loving,
Ever Inspiring….

22nd August 2004
Sunday

::from my lil' handwritten note book::

The Christmas Tree

2004-12-15T03:34:00.000+08:00

theSpirit... ChristmasWarmth
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

Helen...not of troy

2004-12-06T22:02:00.000+08:00

helen
Originally uploaded by jperkinson.

Ain't she the cutest lil' thing. She reminds me of Meredith. An angel in her own special way.

Attraction... The Theory

2004-12-02T23:18:00.000+08:00

My point of view of Attraction is it's "The process which contributes to causing or motivates ones behavior." The way I see it, being in a mode of feeling attracted would increase the level of ones Curiosity and Desires.

I believe attraction sparks when we notice the similarity we have with another. It goes without saying that "The more reinforcement one gets, the more attraction one feels."

benrobbie
Originally uploaded by lightpainter.

Here's my two cents worth on the factors which increases the Attraction for another.

"Presence" : I would say that one of the key factors would be BEAUTY. We all know that anyone and everyone is swept away or dumb founded by beauty. It could either be of ones physical beauty or by the beauty of ones mind. It's the main starting off point of all friendships.
-And if beauty is the strength of being an attraction, it will in return boost ones confidence level-

'Space & Time' : I'm sure that PROXIMITY is one of the contributing factors too. It gives the opportunity to learn and notice the similar traits between two person.
-And it will inflict a mental state of curiosity and influence the desire to want to communicate even more with the other-

One would feel more attracted to another when all these factors come together subsequently.

I feel that a continues lasting attraction is possible and exist when similar traits are noticed and acknowledge by one another. I believe this leads friendship into a bond of relationship.

Tale Of Many Sorrows

2004-11-28T11:40:00.000+08:00

I've heard of many stories
I've been told of many tales
Of many many sorrows
Of many many stales

And I've come to realize
They are stories that just need to be told
For people to release their own arrows
Of old old arrows and bows

------------------

Stories exist because people like to share and hear of others experiences. It does not necessary mean that somewhere in time you, yourself would be experiencing the same dilemma, problems or situation. It's just there...

Just for you to LEARN
And
Just for you to GROW

2005 Holiday Destination

2004-11-25T18:58:00.000+08:00

Venice in November
Originally uploaded by kosare.

I WANNA GO HERE....!!!!!

Bridging The Conversation

2004-11-24T13:08:00.000+08:00

As I fell into a deep slumber of sleep, my mobile rang with an odd number appearing. The kind that does not appear with a name and makes you wonder "Who the hell is calling me at this hour?" Well, since I thought that I'm already up, might as well answer it even if it's a wrong number. To my surprise it was a friend of my sister. She apologized for calling so late having noticed that my voice was like a frog's crock. And I asked her, "Anything that I can help you with?". She said "It's your sister, she's not feeling too good at the moment." Immediately my eyes almost popped out of the socket. This is something that had never happen before. And so arrangement was made for my sister to be sent to my place.

Once she got here, I could tell that there were many things running in her mind, even if she doesn't say it. Call it a Sibling Telepathy. And so we sat down at the sofa... and the heart to heart talk begin. I've always felt and know that I'm normally an 'ear to hear & listen'. Something that was given to me from the fella upstairs. And only speak when I feel there is a need.

Both of us were never close while growing up....maybe it's the age gap, maybe it's the rivalry or maybe it could even be that I consider myself different from other members of the family being that I am the youngest. [This is something that I've come to realized that I'm not any different from the person next to me. I may be a lil' better, but not any different.] But whatever it was I'm glad that for the pass two years we've managed to make the bridge shorter and closer together.

It was a reminder to me in a way....that we are who we are because we have a family. Regardless if it's by blood or just out of love for one another.

Thought Of The Day

2004-11-22T13:17:00.000+08:00

...GRATITUDE peels you off from any confusion, stress and denial. It's something simple, but yet we forget the greatness and the sense of relieve that it brings..

In A Distance

2004-11-20T17:28:00.000+08:00

Leafy Figure
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

A Confused Bitch [chapter one]

2004-11-19T19:45:00.000+08:00

Trapped in a body that wants to do so many things that it sicken every living thing that surrounds her. At one time she had wanted to be a doctor and at another time she had wanted to be an archeologist. Never really saw what was installed in the future she did what every woman wanted in life.... working to earn a living in a world that stated "Money Is Everything" in order to go on living.

Born on May 23rd 1973, Sandra Machiato was a woman that had a bright future ahead of her having come from a family that adores her. Her father owned a book store on Pillar Avenue and her mom a domestic curator. Being an only child, Sandra got almost everything she ever wished for. The little doll's house that every girl had to have while growing up, a dog named Rex, a shinny red bicycle with frills on both handle and a pink baskets to place the freshly picked daisy.

After graduating from college, Sandra decided that text book and her don't quite go hand in hand that well. And so came a night that she told her parents that she has decided not to continue with her studies but instead to start working to broaden her knowledge in the real world. Mr and Mrs Machiato has always supported her in anything that her heart desires, but what they did not expect was her decision to move out of the house.

Four months has passes since they had the discussion on Sandra's idea of moving out and living on her own. Four months has passed with Sandra working at her father's book store to earn some money to pay for her initial down-payment for the apartment that she has set her eyes on. After much arguments and silent treatment between Sandra and her parents, the day has come for her to begin her journey in the "Real World".

from our family to yours

2004-11-10T22:45:00.000+08:00

RayaCard2004
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

sebulan berpuasa di bulan ramadhan
jamu selera di waktu senja
kami ucapkan kepada semua
SELAMAT HARI RAYA

Thought Of The Day

2004-11-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

...Everybody has problems. Just don't let it manifest and turn into your problem...

the many colors of the world

2004-11-06T16:51:00.000+08:00

colorfulFaces
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

We are made of many colors, of many cultures, of many races, of many religions...but we are still in many more other ways the same.

We live for our children....we love our parents....honour our country....proud of our nation....nurture our mother earth.....and live on knowledge and imagination.

-WE ARE THE PEOPLE OF THE WORLD, A PLACE WE CALL HOME-

The Family Portrait 1996

2004-11-04T18:07:00.000+08:00

myFamily Portrait 1996
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

I remember the commotion the whole family made because of this particular family portrait. I was working at JHA Productions at the time and was on shoot on that particular day. And my momma refuse to change or push the date for the photo session.

Imagine halfway during shoot, I had to go back home, bath and change into the traditional costume. My momma being herself, she said "Put on some make up. You don't want to look sickly for the family portrait!!" You can imagine my face at that point....argh...so annoyed. She has always been pastering me to put on some make up since I was eleven years old. I think that is one of the reasons that I refuse to use any make up up till now, other then just some lipstick and my NEVER leave home without it eyebrow pencil.

The whole family gathered at my parents house, everybody looking very slick in their outfits. And I remember cleary my dad was the first to be ready..which is always for that matter. I think we spent a good 30 mins to 45 mins at the photo shop. "You stand here...You sit there...Oh no, not balanced" Those were some of the comments from members of the family. And I thank God that my momma didn't pick some awful backdrop.

After all that, I had to go back to work....with THICK make up and all. I remember Ira and Josh laughing at me when I got back

- ONE EVENT THAT I'LL ALWAYS TREASURE -

Out In Town In The Month Of Ramadhan

2004-11-02T20:32:00.000+08:00

Last Thursday, I followed my MistaMan to the Indonesian Embassy to sort out his papers and he decided that since we're already in town that we ought to swing by KLCC. That's was one idea I won't refuse!!! I could do with some leg exercise. And since Hari Raya is coming up...It won't hurt to check out for some "Baju Raya".

I haven't been buying or making "Baju Raya" for the pass 4 years, so to my horror when i saw the price tag on the outfits they have there !!!!! I was shock to see that just the top of a "Baju Kebaya" cost around RM280.00 - RM350.00 a piece!!!! A "Baju Melayu" for men cost about RM210.00...which was just the top!! HolyCow....what are they made of....GOLD & PLATINUM???

And so we both decided that it would just be best that we indulge ourselves with the OSIM chair test drive....which was so awesome. I'm amazed with what mankind has come out with for our pleasure in PLEASURING ourselves. I mean the bloody chair feels like there is someone that is hugging you while massaging every body-ache your body could possibly have. PLUS it comes with headphones to lull you while the machine swings and massages to the rhythm of the music. cOOlest or what??!!

I'm PROUD to be a Malaysian......only because we really put FOOD as our number one attraction to foreign visitors and we really take pride in it.

We had our "Buka Puasa" at Chinoz, KLCC. They had a buffet spread that goes on forever. The selection was fantastic, they had almost every kind of state dishes from Malaysia and some western dishes as well. And the "Kueh"...oh-my-gawd..the kuehs were to die for...you name it, just about all the colors of the rainbow was displayed. "Teh Tarik" oso got....tee hee hee...

I've yet to pay a visit to the "Pasar Juadah" which is all over Kuala Lumpur and the rest of the country. Particularly I miss going to the ones in Bangsar and Taman Tun. I will always remember the time when I would go with my dad.....cause we'll always over buy the food. Everything seems so yummy when you are out on an empty stomach and the variety kills you man...Hopefully this year I'll go armed with a camera in my hands.

- SELAMAT BERPUASA -

The Actual Truth...

2004-10-31T17:00:00.000+08:00

A Dose Of Caffeine
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

A bitter white alkaloid, often derived from tea or coffee and used in medicine chiefly as a mild stimulant and to treat certain kinds of headache.

How did this become the norm drink to have to start off your morning?

The SUN

2004-10-26T21:58:00.000+08:00

Beaming with glory you smile to us
Beautiful is your equal
With rays of life you pour us your colors
The brightess star is what you are

SunsetHugs

2004-10-25T19:32:00.000+08:00

SunsetHugs
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

....just had our 1st initial meeting with the management of Lone Pine Hotel in Penang last weekend.

The spuNky cheeky moNky

2004-10-09T08:39:00.000+08:00

spuNkymoNky onCanvas
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

MyMistaMan just called from Jakarta a few minutes ago.....and the first question he asked was "Watcha doin' BabyBu?" I love it when he calls me that ...sigh.....

So I told him that I just jumped onto bed with a bowl of cereal and watching TV.

And the next thing he said was "I'm so thankful that we're together"...Awww man....I melted like a hot chocolate fudge poured onto a brownie...

What crossed my mind after I hung up the phone was...

"I MUST have paid up all my due in my past life......cause now the SUN is shinning BRIGHT, the MOON is ever so NEAR & I swear PIGs are flying in the SKY....."

I could not have asked for a better relationship as the one I have with you

myJeans

2004-10-08T17:18:00.000+08:00

myJeans
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

Ira's Sweet Birthday Treat...

2004-10-03T22:42:00.000+08:00

Ultimate Peace...
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

We had the BEST spa ever!!!!! It was at Energy Day Spa. Do check it out at : www.energymindbodyspirit.com

We had one of the Weekend Packages, which consist of Steam Bath, Salt Glow, Balneotherapy & Relaxation Therapy.

The 1st Session was like a scene from "Sex And The City"....we both were smillin' from cheek to cheek as we realized we're re-living the scene. Towels down....steam temperature up and we were chattin' and chattin'....and gigglin'....

After that we were sent to the "chillout waiting area" [as per photo] while waiting for the next session. Cold water will be served while you read some magazines and enjoy the view of what Kuala Lumpur has to offer.

The 2nd Session was done in separate rooms. It was a superb body scrub, I swear! After the scrub, you'll jumped in the shower to rinse out..... and your whole body is all radiant, glowing, shinny, silky, smooth..."WoW" is the word.

We both met up again at the chillout area. Sharing our excitement....gigglin'...flippin' thru magazines again and checking out other spas in Bali and Thailand while sippin' on hot tea...

The 3rd Session was the best Detox session I've ever had. You'll be placed in a single jacuzzi like tub. While enjoying the warm jacuzzi jets aimed at your vital points, you'll also be pampered with a cold towel wrapped around your face while mild pressure is given on your forehead, eye area, cheeks and chin every other 5 minutes during the whole session.....and mind you...a straw is served right to your lips for a sip of cold water incase you get dehydrated. To me it's the ULTIMATE pampering !!!

The 4th Session was the icing to the 4 tier cake.....the lady found, worked on and ironed out every body ache I had for the pass year!! I walked out floating on cloud nine....Ira looked like she just had an Ultimate orgasm....

......We'll be back there again for sure.......

A Not So Happy Birthday....

2004-10-02T11:01:00.000+08:00

.......Chillin' at my haus.....and at the stroke of midnight on 2nd October 2004, my bestfriend Ira screamed !!!!! I thought she spilled her drink on her computer. But that was not the reason...it was WORST than that.... She LOST her current on-going job files!!
How you ask? By accidently empting her Trash folder when in actual fact she was in the process of archiving all her work file.

The whole haus was in Chaos and Ira was in Trauma. And guess what? 2nd October is her BIRTHDAY !!!!

It took about an hour trying to see MAYBE just maybe she actually placed the files somewhere in her computer by mistake while she was transfering and draging folders. In the end we accepted the fact that..NOPE...it's GONE from the computer.

Anybody and everybody knows that once you empty your Trash folder....there is NO turning back. But thankgod for people who created applications that enables you to retrieve your STooPID mistakes. And it took hours and hours and hours and more hours to locate and retrieve the lost files...

Thankfully we have a spa appointment this afternoon, a birthday gift for her from my Mista & me..... So that will HELP her ease the trauma.

And as I'm writting this she is still trying to locate it... [cross your fingers everybody...cause it's her LIFE we're talking about here]

::Lesson Learn::
never try to do work after midnight, especially on ya birthday

...to my dearest friend...

2004-09-30T19:35:00.000+08:00

There's nothing as nice as someone who shares,
your laughter, your secrets, your wishes and cares,
someone who's there through your good times and tears,
who stays by your side as your friend through the years.

Luv ya heaps...

dream a lil' dream

2004-09-17T14:16:00.000+08:00

dream
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

A combination of talents....for my experiment

2004-09-14T20:25:00.000+08:00

spuNkymoNky inRed
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

My Mista made a new suit.....it's a Purple pinstriped suit mind you. Had it made within a week by a fella name Deepak Samtani, who owns his own tailor made suit shop at Ramayana, Jakarta. An indian living in Jakarta all his life. Has a very unique sense of style, well travelled, excellent communication skills and very charming I must say.

The photograph was taken by my new found girlfriend in Jakarta who has a fantastic voice and a slender body to die for..... Sausan Machari, an Arabic Indonesian. Truly eccentric as all Gemini are.

Since I had the opportunity to meet these marvelous people, I thought that I'ld venture into the world of Photoshop by using a photo which combined the talent of these wonderful people......

It may not be much to the PRO Photoshop masters...but I'm thrilled with the work that I've done.

My Gruesome Xperience In Jakarta

2004-09-09T11:26:00.000+08:00

BombBlast
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

Woke up a lil' early today at 10am to catch the re-run of "The Practice" that we missed yesterday night......sat down in the living room, turned on the TV, smoked a ciggie.........and at 10.30am.... KaBOOM !!!!!!

For the first time Josh & I saw how & what a "shockwave" of a bomb looked & felt like...... We could see it clearly right in front of our eyes as the curtains were drawn open in the livingroom.......I screamed....and asked Josh "What was that?"

All of us ran to the balcony and saw smoke coming from a building in a distance.

Josh said "It was a bomb!"

My heart was beating absolutely fast. Rolaand was in the bathroom at the time the bomb went off, his head was thrown back. Everybody staying at the apartment building ran out & downstairs to see what the sound was all about...

Being a SNAPaholic that I am....Immediately I grabbed my camera and took pictures......

I could see people running down the fire escape stairs of a building next to where the smoke was coming from. Villagers staying nearby are seen running to the scene as well.

Josh & I were in a state of ShocK!!!!

Standing at the balcony, we were all trying to figure where, what , which building. And with my none 20-20 vision I actually spotted in a distance a bright blue flag in a building compound which had settellites on the roof...I put 2 and 2 together and immediately I told the boys "I think it's the Australian Embassy". But we weren't sure. I saw a building which looked like it's still under construction and asked the boys "What building is that?". They could not figure it out as they've never seen such a building and then we realized that it's NOT a building under construction BUT a building which was affected by the blast. I swear it didn't look like a building at all at that very moment because you can see right through it.

True enough as we turned on the TV to a local channel they announced it......"The Australian Embassy was hit by a bomb"

Basically we're more or less about 1 km away from where it happened. We're staying with Rolaand at his apartment at Taman Rasuna, which is within the same district of Kuningan.

I thank God that Rolaand and Josh decided to leave for work a lil' later than usual.

This is one event that I would NOT want to experience again.

state of BEING

2004-09-08T14:09:00.000+08:00

CONTENT :
• Desiring no more than what one has; satisfied
• Ready to accept or acquiesce; willing

CONTENTED :
• Satisfied or showing satisfaction with things as they are
• Easy in mind; satisfied; quiet; willing

the days when you just feel like shit.....

2004-08-29T13:25:00.000+08:00

I believe life is like a RollercoasteR......

There are days that you feel like you're on top of the world and there are days when you feel like you're the worst creature on the planet. I, myself have gone thru so many ups and downs to know that the people that are around you and the people that loves you are the best outlet to get you back on track.

It doesn't pay to keep your feelings bottled up. It just makes the pressure cooker whistle even louder then ever.

Damn, I've had my share of exploding into tears not knowing what the hell it was for!! And whenever you feel down, somehow the people you need will just appear without you even asking, let it be with a phone call, an sms or even an email. It's one of God's gift that amazes me. It's like your silent call was heard. It has happen to me....and I swear I freaked out but at the same time overjoyed with the present He's sent.

In my life I have had the opportunity to experience the lowest of low, the saddest of sad and the worst of worst. And climb back up again knowing that no matter how awful you day was there will be days when you feel you're at your best.

Life never cease to surprise you....

I have an ADDICTion

2004-08-24T16:02:00.000+08:00

......I need to stare at the computer at least once a day........

I can't imagine NOT opening up my computer and NOT getting connected. During my childhood it was the "Idiot Box" or some call it Television that I was glued to. I'll be a foot away from the bloody thing. And I still remember hearing my parents saying "Don't sit too close to the TV, you'll spoil your eyes". I'll move an inch and that's about it.

The usual recorded movies that I'll be watching again and again and again right after school will be the ever famous P. Ramlee movies. Bujang Lapuk, Pendekar Bujang Lapuk, Tiga Abdul, Madu Tiga...... with a plate of rice, fried chicken, fried taugeh, sambal belacan and a glass of syrup. My staple diet during primary school.

NOW it's the computer, plenty of Dunhill Lights, snacks and plain water. The TV will still be on, but it serves as a "on the side" visual aid.

Hi, my name is sherIZAN and I'm a computer junkie.

Always...

2004-08-22T05:10:00.000+08:00

Always write love letters....
Always be in touch....
Always keep in mind....
Always Remember....

The People You Love

The New Additions Are Here....

2004-08-17T02:29:00.000+08:00

Boogie just gave BIRTH !!!!!!!!!!!

everyDAY reminds me of YOU

2004-08-11T00:59:00.000+08:00

Ãs2 @ Luna Park, Melbourne
Originally uploaded by sherIZAN.

in the middle of the night
where the moon shines so bright
all that i can think of is YOU

In the warmth of the day
as the sun gleams it's true beauty
all that i can think of is YOU...you...YOU

everyDAY is everyDAY
which always brings something new

if ever you hear an owl's coo
and wonder who it's singing to
it's just me calling YOU

everyDAY is everyDAY
and YOU always bring something new....

Thank You...

2004-08-10T01:52:00.000+08:00

I'm grateful to be born
I'm grateful to be your daughter
I'm grateful to be your sister
I'm grateful to be your mother
I'm grateful to be your friend

I'm thankful to be alive

I'm grateful for all that I have